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Fuck it.

Posted on 2006.11.22 at 13:01
Current Mood: sicksick
I hate being sick. I didn't go to school today.

I still have work though. Tomorrow is Thanksgiving, I don't really like it all that much. But on friday I'm going to my Grandpa's 70th birthday. My aunt is bringing her ex-Versache model boyfriend. I can't wait.

Was it just a dream that happend long ago?

Posted on 2006.11.14 at 23:30
Current Mood: restlessrestless
Current Music: London Calling--The Clash
I finally got my school picture retakes. They are much better than the first ones.

Server training today. Everybody told me I own as a Server.
Even though I don't work with Dan anymore, he found some way to talk to me.
I was waiting for my mom, sitting at the counter and writing my cosmetology terms because there due tomorrow. Then he comes over and tells me that I'm in denial and that I'm actually really pissed off.

I hate when people tell me what I feel, and that was what pissed me off.

Anyways, I can't figure out whats up with Halyna. She is acting really distant, and now I need her the most. She never has time to hear what I really need to tell her.

I don't even know what's happening.

Posted on 2006.11.11 at 10:52
Current Mood: coldcold
Current Music: God Called In Sick Today--AFI
I work today, that means I have to see Dan.
For some reason I hate him. Maybe and most likely, I hate him because he is trying to solve my problems.
He's like fucking Dr. Phil. I can't stand it.
I want to solve my problems my own way, even if it isn't the best way.

I did get promoted though, I'm gonna be a server now, my training starts tuesday. That means I won't have to work with Dan anymore.

I just can't stand anymore of his "Oh Libby you need more love in your life, I'm serious, you do"-bullshit.



The house is too fucking cold, I'm going to go running. And listen to my new iPod.

This is the Final Cut....

Posted on 2006.11.06 at 13:58
Current Mood: depresseddepressed
Current Music: Coheed and Cambria
I skipped school today, and I went online just now for the first time in days.

Only to find out that Mic and Josh are out of Coheed.
I can't even explain the feeling I have right now, I don't care that its only a band.

Halloween is officially over.

Posted on 2006.11.01 at 01:23
Yep, halloween came and went. I didn't go out, I didn't pass out candy, I didn't dress up. I worked, and it sucked. Halloween is my favorite holiday and I would have called off work if I had someone to go out with. I could have gone with Halyna, but she was going with Jared, and I really hate that kid. So I definitely didn't want to join them.

Dan did buy some candy at work for us to share, I barely ate any though, I thought it was a nice gesture.
It was really slow today, so we pretty much goofed off the whole time.

Next year halloween is gonna be better, I'll find someone to go out with. And if I go with Halyna, Jared isn't going to come. I don't care, that kid is a little, fake bitch.


Posted on 2006.10.24 at 23:10
Current Mood: coldcold
I've been so busy lately I havent been updating that much. I'm going to try to update more often.


Anyways, it's been a pretty rough month. I've been really stressed and I've been spacing-out alot lately. My mind is always in another place, thinking about the guy from New York, my future career, moving to Upstate NY, shit like that....whatever.
So Halyna and I have been talking kinda, she's always "busy" and can't hang out. We just talk on the phone alot, we may be friends again, but it's never gonna be like before. That really depresses me.

And on to that guy Dan from my work, I really think he likes me, but he has a girl. He claims to really care about this girl and they've been together for over a year. But in all the talking he's done about her, he has never once said he loves her. He always flirts with me and tries to help me with things. And I really do think he likes me. It's wouldnt matter much if he did come out and say he likes me, the guy from New York is way too special. I met that guy 2 Septembers ago and had feelings for him since the moment I shook his hand and looked into his eyes. I don't know what I'm gonna do, I just care for him so much...

Posted on 2006.10.18 at 00:30
I havent had much time to update lately.

Today at work I was waiting for my ride to pick me up, and it was taking a loooong time. So I was talking with Catlin, Tiffany, Daisy, and Dan. We were all talking about our dads and all of a sudden Dan says "My dad committed suicide 4 years ago". Everyone thought he was joking, but he was dead serious. And I know this sounds horrible but I feel like he's the lucky one. With my father I don't have any closure, the fact that he is just out there on the other side of the country not even caring that he has 2 kids haunts me. I just feel so horrible knowing that he moved thousands of miles away just to get away from me. If he was dead, it wouldn't bother me as much. It's the fact that he's alive and doesnt care, that's what gets me the most.
I know it's really bad to say Dan is the lucky one, but at least he has some closure. I'm never gonna get that.



I'm just ranting, go ahead and bitch at me if you want. It's only my opinion.


Oh and I saw this girl Stephanie a few days ago. Her mom and my Dad used to be engaged, they lived together for a couple years. I knew her really well too. So she lived with my dad more recently than I did. We chatted for a bit when she came into Bob Evans

I don't care if you don't care.

Posted on 2006.10.10 at 14:51
Current Mood: nervousnervous
Current Music: 99 Luft Balloons--Nena
So anyways today was a pretty stressful day. I did alot of talking with Laura, she's super concerned about Halyna and so am I. And Halyna's pretty pissed because of Laura being so straight-forward about her concerns. So I finally said I was going to talk to Halyna, I walked up to her in the hallway with Amanda. I started to walk the other direction, but then I grabbed her arm and said I needed to talk to her. She wasnt pissed or anything, but I got so overwhelmed I almost started crying. So I walked her to her bus and we talked. I have to call her in a few minutes.

Maybe we'll hang out tomorrow, I have work today.

life is really starting to kick my ass

Posted on 2006.10.05 at 22:37
I started training at work. It's not really like training, it's more like normal work, but you don't get in trouble for messing up. Two boys work there named Dan, so I call them 'Dan number 1' and 'Dan number 2'. They are really cool.
Today my aunt, uncle, cousins, and grandma came into eat.

I can't wait to get paid.

No regular school tomorrow, only Parkway, then work.

So....

Posted on 2006.09.29 at 19:42
Current Mood: cheerfulcheerful
I got the job at Bob Evans. The manager said he like my smile. And I found out that they are everywhere, not just around Pennsylvania. I'm pretty siked to start working.


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